Today my precious boy would have been 10 years old. It was a day that I will never forget although I didn't actually hold him on that day. He entered this world on March 14th without knowing the love of the one who would be his mommy. It wasn't until after Connor's death did I come to know the details of the day he was born because I didn't have the opportunity to hold him for the first time until 2 days after he was born. What a treasure these details are to me now as I remember the day he came into this world. It was a day of great sadness for both his birthmom and birthdad and for that reason I will forever be grateful for their choice to give him a life with our family. It was a life that brought indescribable joy and meaning and opened my eyes to what it means to truly live LIFE. Each day I spent with Connor are ones that I savored during his life as well as after his death and thankfully the memories of his touch, how his little body felt in my arms, his wet slobbery kisses and all those precious little Connor mannerism are stamped in my heart and mind and flood me on this special day in which we honor him.
I give thanks today to my God for bestowing upon me this gift of Connor. I didn't deserve such a beautiful son but my God chose to grant me this unbelievable honor of being his mommy for 3 1/2 years. They truly were the best years of my life. I miss him beyond words and cannot wait for that day when I will hold him once again. Happy Birthday to my "big big boy". My arms reach for Heaven today to love on you once again.